A choice

I got the results of my ultrasound and other fun internal test on sat. My doctor told me that I have a large cyst on one of my ovaries (6cm) and as a result of that and my symptoms that she suspects that I have endometriosis. Part of me felt a little relieved that I might have an actual reason for issues I have been having issues with my period. I wasn't too concerned with the idea of having endometriosis either since I remember reading articles about it and have heard of others having it and I remembered it being common.

Then I started reading and reading. I discovered that endometriosis is the second leading cause of infertility in females. Also for more advanced endometriosis a hysterectomy is needed.

It was crazy I might not even have endometriosis let alone be infertile (many women have it and are not infertile) or need a hysterectomy but I had this overwhelming sadness.

I still don't understand it. I'm not even sure I want children and Mr T and I have hypothesised that if we do that we would seriously consider adoption. I'm also one of those people who don't understand why some couples spend so much money and time on IVF when there are other options like adoption. I'm even had great philosophical discussions about the obsession to have 'your own children' in the face of overpopulation and the effects on the environment. But somehow now I MAY be removed of a choice and I just feel sad. I feel like a hypocrite.

On the upside I may not have to worry about contraception.

Without private health insurance it will probably be a couple of months before I am able to have a Laparoscopy to figure out if I have it.

Mr Chive



I know I said no more lunch pics, but I had to share this recipe for “Sausage Heroes with Sauerkraut and Carmelized Red Onion". It is so easy and yummy. I'm going to cook the red onion and "sausages" on the sandwich press at work.

I have lots of things to talk about but not enough time to share will post again soon, I promise.

'Gay' is not an insult

It doesn't matter if you don't mean 'gay' as in same sex attracted 'gay' when you use it too insult everyone and everything. Or if you do identify yourself as gay and just copy everyone else using it as insult. It's still not insult and shouldn't be used as one.

Nausea during or after exercise?

Since I'm a sharing caring type of gal and I struggled (it took longer than 2 minutes) to find the answer with my own Google search I thought I would share with you the address of the best website I eventually found on the subject. It is a mountain biking website but it was the most useful for me.

I'm still not sure what caused the nausea after my bike ride but one tiny little ginger candy seemed to help a lot.

Happy List

I feel as if my last few posts have been all kind of negative, and while I love to vent I also like to write about happy stuff. So here is it my current happy list:

* chocolate, chocolate and more chocolate
* acupuncture
* my bike
* dvds- especially tv series dvds like gilmore girls
* arranging my birthday day picnic
* new food accessories including a butterfly vegetable cutter (see pic below, yes i'm a food nerd and proud)
* bonding with my little sister for the first time in a long while
* exploratory walks with Mr T to different locations
* catching up my brother who seems to be 'deeply in love'
* engaging and/or reflecting and just feeling inspired by stuff in the online world (eg: great feminist posts by amazing women, or cute food pics on flickr)
* catching up with friends
* my new adorable puy (french green) lentil package thanks to honey (see below)



Btw, does anyone remember the happy lists blog/site that used to be around?