It must be time for a rant...

Feel free to skip this post. But sometimes I need to get stuff of my chest!

Ok so here goes:

• I had nausea, vomiting, ingestion for a week and then like the worst flu ever with a constant fever, where I have been going through over a box of tissues per day for a week. Now I have both the flu and an upset stomach together. How unfair is that?
• We have just been told that our rent will go up. We are already paying $30 more a week than the other units next to us and now will be paying $55 more per week. We originally offered them 9 months ago an extra $20 per week to secure this place, thinking at least our rent won't go up for a while. I had a quick look and for the same price we could easily get a 2 bedroom property but is is worth the cost of moving? It wouldn't be so bad if it wasn't for the fact that our place is crap, no proper heating, the place if falling apart and there are major gaps in all of the doors and windows so it sucks in both winter and summer. I'm actually contemplating a sharehouse right now even though I hate them.
• I am so behind at work due to all of the sick leave so when I'm at home I keep thinking about my poor clients and when I'm at work my colleagues are angry at me for being there in case I infect them. I'm run out of sick leave and am starting to think I will never get better.
• We have this amazing holiday coming up and I'm starting to worry that we won't be able to afford it and that I won't be able to get my thesis done in time. It's hard to be productive when your constantly sick!
  

To try to counter balance all of the complaining a tiny bit:

• We just celebrated button living with us for a year. It is a relieve considering that we had our last cat Molly for only 6 months before she disappeared.
• I have an awesome husband, that word still feels really weird and really old. Still better than wife though in my opinion.
• I made something non- food related, a button bouquet: using lots of different types of buttons, floral wire, and a vintage salt shaker for a friends birthday:
  

Is it just me?

Or does the future that you hoped for just seem so impossible?

Mr T and I were talking hypothetically (don't get too excited!) about having kids in about 3 years time. But before we have kids we need to go back to Hong Kong to see his family and our friends, we also need to go the US for my brothers wedding and we should try to buy a unit/flat. Am I asking too much, really? I'm not asking to buy a house, just a small flat/unit. I think it's best for us to go back to Hong Kong when we don't have to take small child/ren and don't have a mortgage or super expensive rent.

We can't afford to buy anything now or anywhere in the near future, I'm still working part time while I do my Masters which now looks like it is going to be dragged even further into the future thanks to my bloody thesis which I still don't have a topic for. Mr T is starting his second career in a new country which takes lots of time and we are poor, poor, poor.

It's overwhelming. Even if we just want to rent a bigger place (bigger than our cardboard box sized place) we can't afford it right now, or anytime in the near future. We can't exactly have a baby or two in the smallest 1 bedroom flat in the world. I don't think it's even fair to have another cat here, its too small. And even if I could afford to buy, how is one supposed to pay for a mortgage with just one income even for a tiny period of time while I give birth?

Oh yeah, we are also supposed to have a wedding, yeah right!

My family keeps trying to encourage me to move to places like Hoppers Crossing, but honestly I would prefer to rent in the smallest flat in the world then buy a huge house in Hoppers Crossing for lots of reasons. Besides, living in the outer burbs is pretty difficult if you are like Mr T and don't drive or like me and don't want to depend on a car.

Ahhhhhhhhhhh I kind of wish I was 20 again and didn't have to think about this stuff for a while.

One of the many views from my uncles balcony at his property in the basin.

Random personal stuff

• I recently started seeing a new traditional Chinese medicine doctor for herbs and he convinced me to also try acupuncture and I love him. He's young, has a great sense of humour and he actually fixes my health problems. Including problems with my hormones that I have had for years and that no one or nothing seems to fix and he even made a cold go away. He's a miracle worker.
  
• Acupuncture is different than I expected. The first time I felt extremely relaxed and enjoyed the 20mins of just laying there which isn't exactly typical for me, the second time I felt this strange but cool tingling sensation inside. I'm going for my third session tomorrow.
  
• I still can't get motivated with my thesis. I hate it and never seem to stop dreaming about dropping out with only 1 year to go, arghhhhhhh.
• I've decided to stop posting pictures of my lunch on here. If you actually miss them because you are a little food or bento obsessed like me you can see them over at flickr amongst many other vegan bento pics.
• I saw camera obscura on fri night and really enjoyed it. They are playing at a cheaper price ($20) on monday in Brunswick(14 Prentice St, Brunswick). I'm kind of tempted to go again because we could walk to the venue and back and the price includes a vegetarian BBQ.
  
• Mr popfrenzy himself Chris Wu was at the show. I was so tempted to say to him 'thank you so much for bringing out the gossip it was the best free live show I have ever seen' but I thought that might be kind of awkward and well just 'uncool'.
  
• I have finally gave up pretzels. Yay! Thanks to my Chinese medicine doctor who gave me a few tips.
• My stepdad pointed out the other day that my handlebars on my bike are the wrong way around. Which explains why the breaks felt so strange to me.
• Mr T's parents are coming to visit in April. A few people have suggested that we should have the wedding then since they will be in the country already and then won't have to come back for our wedding.
  
• My uncle offered to use his gorgeous property for our wedding. It's tempting with all the gorgeous views and the sounds of kookaburras but it would be so far for everyone to travel and I would have to arrange buses or something so everyone can get home after drinking. Besides I'm not sure that I actually want a wedding.
  
• I have a new job. Not sure how I will fit it in with a close to full time job and uni but it's only casual and after hours and in a field that I really want to try.