Being sick to me means:

an association with my past
having to ask for help
watching bad tv during the day
frustration
feeling cut off from the world
taking pain killers (something i never do)
being unproductive
loss of interest in food
not sleeping properly
drinking sports drinks
boredom
feeling yucky
forcing myself to eat/drink
pain
longing for someone (to look after me)
the longest days/nights
feeling hot in the middle of winter

did i mention being pessimistic?

Your health really is the most important thing

I'm writing this from my room as a one very sick kristy. Hoping that i a) i can get through this post without rushing to the bathroom to vomit for the hundredth time and b) i can keep down the one piece of toast that i am eating as i type.


Wish me luck!

Not just yet...

I'm not leaving, well not this friday as expected

and probably not for another a month

Working visa process, don't you just love it?

We are what we eat!

I wonder if most people realise who or what they are supporting by choosing certain foods. No I'm not just talking about animal products although i could quite easily go into a conversation about the dairy industry and battery hens i will refrain from doing so (pats herself on the back).

It seems that people are developing more of a conscience about supporting or rather not supporting other products such as clothing (from sweat workshops) or beauty products (which test on animals).

However, food related companies should also be examined. With McDonald's being a obvious example. But then there are companies such as Kraft (owned by Phillip Morris), and Nestle (associated with the life-threatening marketing of infant formula).

Not to mention Genetically Engineered Food, do we really want to support this?

We live in a country where we are lucky enough to choose from array of labels, and types of foods.

Furthermore, organisations such as Infact have shown how successful wide scale boycotting.

There really is power in choice. But what are we choosing?

The latest update:

"Under such circumstance, I'm afraid we have to wait for the visa so the
commencing date will be postponed to Sept"

what the ???

I called her she said shes not sure, so i guess it will either be in a week or a month that i go.

And tonight just happens to be the night of my farewell drinks.

Ahhh life is strange some times.

No turning back now.

I'm going, i handed in my letter of resignation yesterday and sent off the contract.

Two weeks left in this beautiful country: now i just need to make sure i enjoy it!

some thoughts about my blog from another:

"For me the problem with that is as someone who knows Kristy very well, these Blogs don't tell the story I know. They don't tell the much more interesting and and wonderful story that is the real world of Kristy.

So while I am honoured to be outed in this blog, for those that know 'us' Kristy and I, rest assured life is a lot more interesting than these blogs give credit for. "

Now i wonder who that was from?

Hes got a good point (although probably a bit biased), its hard to keep along the fine line between exposing all the ups and downs of my crazy life, and mentioning only the mundane boring things of my life.

What do you think? Should i stick more to the mundane dull things or expose my self emotionally?

Ways to waste my last day before going back to work.

Read favourite blogs, surf the internet, and send various emails.

Have conversation with Mark about such trivial matters as the origin of the word: minestrone.

Eat slightly melted Soylati Mocha flavoured ice cream in front of the heater while watching Three guys and a girl (btw my brother looks and acts like one of the guys).

Vow that i should stop procrastinating and do various household tasks including clean room but quickly dismiss thoughts.

Talk to representative about the job in Hong Kong.

Pick up brother from St Kilda

Have long almost too hot shower.

Read a chapter of Harry Potter.

Spend equal amounts of time talking myself into and out of signing the contract for the job.

Send several text messages to selected individuals.

Check out my little sister pink and purple braces that were put on her mouth today.

Arrange dinner date with my fav dinner pal: Marisa.

Talk myself into accepting the job.

Start spending equal amounts of time worrying and becoming excited about the prospect that I could be living and working in another country in less than three weeks.

Start missing Australia just thinking about it.

Start devising a way to break it to my employer that i will be leaving in less than three weeks.

Start thinking, 'Surely I am crazy, what the hell am I doing?'

Write this blog entry.

This evening will probably consist of dinner with Marisa where I discuss the ins and outs of the job offer, veganism, and how much i'll miss whatever food we'll be eating. Followed by another conversation with Mark, more emails, and organisation of tomorrows lunch, some more net surfing and many thoughts devoted to this major decision I have to make by tomorrow.

Ahhh I think its amazing that my life can be so boring and so exciting at the same time.

The pros and cons of accepting the position

Pros:
* I have always wanted to try teaching English
* The experience of living overseas
* I love Honky children (they have to up there on the list of the worlds most adorable children)
* A full time job that pays more than what I can earn here
* I get to learn (finally) Wing Chun from where it originated
* I have no real career prospects here
* I have no major commitments that i have to get out of here
* I can learn how to cook Tofu the way they do
* Get to spend time in amazing monestries
* If i don't go now I may never go
* I will have at least one friend in the country
* Efficient PT system
* Travelling to China, and Macau.

Cons
* Vegetarian Orgasm
* I might miss out on experiencing the new location of Vegetarian Orgasm and their deli.
* Family and friends
* I will be living in the same country as my ex boyfriend (although i'm sure there will be no problem being friends)
* I will be locked into at least a six month contract
* Missing out on fruit and veggies that actually taste the way they should
* Not speaking cantonese (at least to begin with)
* Fruit juice, not cordial which they label as fruit juice
* The experience of being a gwaipo (term associated with female 'ghost person')
* Having to live in a country that proudly displays dead animal out the front of most restaurants
* Being in the same country as the central market and other terrifying 'food' markets (see here)
* Various smells
* Pollution

To keep with the general theme of my life at the moment...

I was just offered a job teaching English OS (well it depends on my passport-but no prob then).

Accomodation, return trip, ok wage, and what seems like good conditions.

So now what...

Well if I say yes then they want me there by August 1.

Oh my ...

Dating friends...

A small study (an honours thesis) at my University found that when men and women are friends there are a few general rules. If both male and female friends are single than males tend to think 'why not...' providing they find them attractive, women on the other hand tend to think ' i don't want to ruin the friendship'. Of course this isn't always the case and if one or both are in relationships it completely changes the dynamic.

As a women with more male friends than female friends this has happened to me a few times, well three to be specific . Please bare in mind that i have plenty of platonic relationships with men too. Each time I've used the whole 'i don't want to ruin the relationship' line apart from this last one.

Mark

Dating a friend is certainly different. I cringe now when i think I've all the details he knows of my life, my sex life, relationship problems, insecurities and so on. There's no being fake, pretending, holding back, or mystery (well only a little).

Having said that i have no regrets so far. We have such an amazing friendship and a relationship between us seems like a natural progression right now.

"Life moves pretty fast. If you don't stop and look around once in a while, you could miss it" (Ferris Buellers day off)

Choices made so far.

Mr M are no longer together (if your confused: don't worry so was I) and i've learnt that we are more compatible as friends.

Psy career on hold for at least six months. I only made that decision today and i'm still coming to terms with it.

Now only one or two more big decisions to make.

Lets hope thats it for life changing decisions this year.