Yesterday
 
I had lunch (well technically breakfast for me) at vo with friend from HK who is here

Had dinner with Marisa and then went and seen  the band Origami who i lurrrrrrrrrved.

Then had my required 1 hr conversation with my darling

why can't everyday be like that?

Life or something like it

So i'm working part time at my old work (like 5 hrs a week or something ridiculous like that)

Am still waiting for refund from Cathay (long story) 

so completely broke that i'm having to borrow from my mother

applying for all sorts of crappy jobs that i don't really want

and am kind of stuck in terms of career options and my long term relationship.

Nah its still not good to be back! 

Oh that Question
 
I was out sat night when a friend of a friend starting to make some comment along the lines of i'm only got one thing to ask about veganism, and then started to look embarrased and said 'no i can't ask it'.

He didn't have to i knew, knowing what the question had to be:

'do vegans swallow?'

I've always just assumed that men are purely playing when they ask this, but judging from the number of times i'm been asked it i'm starting to wonder whether some men really are that stupid.

Just in case heres some others answering the question i'm sick of answering. 

  

Toby's no longer a part of 22 cats.  

Bits and pieces  

I didn't get the job i wanted (perhaps because i got the time confused and turned up 30 mins late for the second interview) I did however get offered a weekend position working both yes BOTH sat and sundays with the teamleader being one of my best friends miss meesa.

Am considering getting a full time crappy job too working monday to friday and becoming a workaholic temporary just to save a little, pay back a few debts and perhaps get together with my international darling.

I went and seen MC5 tonight and hopefully seeing mach pelican on sat.

Oh yeh and one of the family cats (dairy) that disappeared about 3 weeks ago come back today and looks like someone else has been taking very good care of him.

Btw- notice a few changes on here- yes i've been busy! 

I wish i was there 

Regression is:
 

• moving back with parents
• going back to old crappy call centre job (well maybe have to go through one more interview)
• being completly broke again

btw: love the new blogger tricks 

I must be in lurrve either that or crazy.
 
A friend just offered a relatively crazy solution to my' should he come here' or 'i go back' dilemma:
 
Whoever gets a proper (not temping or short term) job firsts stays where they are and the other one moves to that place.
 
Being the crazy girl i am it kind of seems feasible- even a good idea.
 
I'm not sure what happened to me but i've also become one of these people that will move for a man. One amazing, beautiful man. But a man all the same!
 
Another plan he suggested and later dismissed- i go back to hk for a year or two and that allows him to work on his English (for the record its good but certainly not perfect) and build on some sort of career foundation so that when we both return to melb he can get a decent job. This also seems plausible.
 
Its Toby birthday in September and i would love to be with him somewhere so we have also discussed him coming to Melb for a holiday Which i would love more than anything.
 
Money and lack of jobs is deferring us being together what ever we do.
 
This week i am determined i will get a job- no matter how crappy. 
 
 

Thanks

Stu- your the best!

Oh nooooooooo

I have become one of 'those people' who talks about their significant other alot.

I don't know how that happened.

and

Toby's band (22 cats) made it into the top 10 of hk charts

i'm really happy for him and the band


but the selfish part of me can't help thinking that this can't be good news for 'us'.

Also simba the family cat had to be put down today as it ate rat poison(not ours)and was suffering quite alot. RIP Simba!

Last night
I had a drink and watched Super size me with Bryce.

It made me feel a little better somehow.

First hanging out with Bryce reminded me that everyone has bad luck, and Bryce seems to perfect the art of laughing in the face of his misfortune. We had a great big laugh out at financial problems, living with parents, and bad employment situations. Sick maybe but very therapeutic.

Second, John Robbins was in the movie, i looooooooooove him. Something about the way he writes that just makes me melt. I should probably explain he doesn't write some cheesy romance books but talks about the impact our diet has on the word. No thats not really the second thing. The movie has guilted me into realising i really should cut down on my crap lifestyle of overly processed rubbish and lack of exercise.

The good thing about HK is everything is so close that you can walk there, but that actually means you end up walking quite alot.

So plan B: will start cooking again (a little more than baked beans on toast) and trying to incorporate some form of exercise in there too.

As soon as i get a job as well i am going to start somesort of class- yoga, wing chun something.

From Lee Ching Leung's (Toby's friend) Porcelain:

'what on earth could grieve me more, than to be wide awake when the loved one is sleeping, to be separated from a young darling woman like her, dreaming in her travelling dreams... and what could ache my heart more than to witness 2 beings, me, her, separated by the human form'

Well i can think of just a few things!

I hate movies right now.

If this was a movie i could have listened when he said don't go, i could have turned back even at the airport ignoring the ticket i just re-brought and ignoring the fact that i have no accomodation options, job or money at all. I could afford to jump on the next plane to HK, even fly him here NOW.

If this was a movie we would be together now rather than waiting 2-6- 12 months to be together. If this was a movie him living in Australia would be ok, he would be able to find a job in melbourne and we could have our happy ever after.

In life though, i had to endure 'that goodbye', the pain, the constant struggle of trying to get motivated for everyday crap without him.

Re-entry shock

Thanks for the tip- Erin.

Why hadn't anyone else- pre warned me? Hell why didn't i learn about in my bloody psy degree.

My googling revealed: "Re-entry shock is simply the shock of being home. It's the reverse culture shock you experience in your own country when you visit places that should be familiar to you, but aren't; try to interact with people you should feel comfortable with, but don't; or face situations you should be able to handle, but can't"

You know you are having reverse culture shock when....

Feeling like a foreigner. Yes

Feeling like you've changed, while every one else has stayed the same. Kind of

Becoming critical of Australian Society kind of

Homesick for another home major yes

Feelings of Uselessness yes although i am hoping that it will change once i start working

Anyway the good news i should be over this relatively soon-ish.

Melbourne, Melbourne, Melbourne

Do you love it or hate it?

At the moment i'm failing to see exactly what i missed about the place.

Plan A: I plan to see as many live shows as i can in the next month or two.

Something i have missed in HK.

Now why in the hell is PJ not playing in melb (while she is playing in byron bay), disgusting!

Ive had two people who said i look/sound tired.

I shouldn't be, i oversleep if anything.

I read alot- just finished Murakami's dance dance dance.

I watch alot of television.

Am online too much.

Go out occasionaly to dinner, to shop, or just to socialise.

It sounds perfect right?

But its driving me crazy.

I'm bored, feel lifeless, and am missing HK like crazy.